i'm still here. in need of prayers

[grillak]

hey everybody

i'm in need if your thoughts and prayers. my family is really going through the thick right now.

i've been dealing with the deaths of 8 very close friends and family members over the last 2 months.

one of my family members was beaten with a steel pipe to point of he will never be the same again. all because he would not give his crackhead girlfriend his money (he didn't realize she was a crackhead until they had been together almost a year).


without getting into too much detail (due to legal reasons), someone who was trusted hurt my grandbaby. i've been asked, advised, and begged not to do anything to this person...yet. it is so hard not to.

i pray every day for the strength not to smudge this person.

i pray every day for peace of mind so that i can feel the strength poured over me by my creator.

i pray that my grandbaby will eventually heal from this.

i pray that one day i can make my gbaby whole...if that's even possible.

i want to do every painful thing i have ever learned to this person. but i have to give the legal system a chance to do its thing.

this hurts so bad.

 

[deo62]

Keep praying and hold on to your faith. You will do nobody any good if you are behind bars yourself. I know what you’re going thru, I too have been thru this. I still fight the urge everyday not to excersise some vengeance on the guy. Praying for you brother

 

[grillak]

Keep praying and hold on to your faith. You will do nobody any good if you are behind bars yourself. I know what you’re going thru, I too have been thru this. I still fight the urge everyday not to excersise some vengeance on the guy. Praying for you brother

thank you.

i didn't know i was capable of this deep-seated rage.

i'm in a state of constant prayer just to maintain control

 

[Steel and wood]

You are a strong man that needs to be there for your family.
And lean on god for guidance and strength. My thoughts and prayer are with you and your love ones.

 

[papa6x]

My thoughts and prayers. It would take more strength than I have to not do anything, and everything I could think of to someone.

 

[wtfd661]

Prayers

 

[mmpsteve]

Prayers sent for you and your family sir. The good Lord can provide miraculous healing for those who keep their faith. I have seen it with my own eyes. Best of luck with it.

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[1nderbeard]

Stinks buddy. No other way to say it.

Pray for God's justice. He is still in control, and sees everything.

 

[bmbutch]

Prayers for you, your family & other loved ones.
Prayers for peace, comfort & Justice.

Stay strong & vigilant.

 

[littletommy]

I’m so sorry that you are dealing with all of this. As someone has already said, your family needs you there with them. I know I would be having the same thoughts if I were in your situation, I have dealt with similar issues, only thing that kept me from getting crazy was my family.

 

[grillak]

if there is any humor to be found in this...the authorities aren't worried about the "arsenal" in my possesion. they know that i am a "hands on" kind of guy.

i need to pray more

 

[DoggyDaddy]

Sorry to hear you and your family are going through all this grillak. I'll definitely keep you all in my prayers. Stay strong!

 

[GregD]

Prayer sent

 

[rob63]

Prayers.

 

[Trigger Time]

Prayers up for you, your family, and friends.
Trust me, acting out against the person physically will not heal your rage or pain and may take you away from those who need you right now. Surround yourself with those who love you and give each other comfort right now.
Sometimes just knowing what you're capable of and showing restraint and mercy is much more comforting than doing something you will regret. Even if they do not deserve your mercy or forgiveness.
Also, try some breathing and meditation exercises. It really can help.

 

[NHT3]

You are in my prayers.... As an aside.. Several years ago I dated a lady that had 3 kids.. she told me her FIL molested one of her girls.. She said I bought a gun with the intention of sending him to his maker. the only thing that stopped her was the fact that her kids needed a mother worse that he needed to be dead and I'm sure she meant every word.
I'll continue to pray for you but keep the big picture in mind would be my advice.

 

[d.kaufman]

Prayers for you and your family. May God grant you the strength to work thru all of this

 

[indyblue]

A sad story indeed.

Best of luck for a good outcome.

 

[Bugzilla]

In my prayers. If you handle the perp who hurt your grand baby, you will not be able to help your grand baby.

 

[jwamplerusa]

@grillak

You have my prayers now and in the future.

Stay strong! You have to stay on the right side of the law so that you can be there for your grandbaby. I have no doubt that it is taking all of your discipline and will to not take care of the thing that hurt your grandbaby yourself. You can't, for if you do the law will turn on you.

I will say extra prayers for you and yours. You are one of the good ones! You have to be free to take care of your family.