I am a target shooter. I enjoy shooting USPSA, Steel Challenge, and IDPA. I am also working a 22LR rifle build for a sub MOA paper punching.
I bow hunted deer when I was a kid but never had the opportunity to shoot a deer. I have only intentionally killed one animal in my life. When I was 15 I found my step dads blow gun and he showed me how to use it. I got pretty good at hitting tennis balls even to the point that I would roll them down the drive way and hit them on the move out to maybe 10 yards or so.
A few days after I started messing around with it, I was cleaning the blowgun and a rabbit ran across the driveway. It stopped about 20 yards away and I decided to take a shot at it. I really didn't think I would be able to hit it but I was young and dumb and decided to give it a go. I shot it while it was broad side to me eating some food from the garden. He dropped down about an inch and never moved again... at first I thought I just shot over it and it squatted like a deer, but as I approached it to retrieve my dart, he never moved. At first I was proud of my marksmanship, but as I picked his warm, lifeless body from the ground, I began feeling horrible. Sadly, The animal went to waste. I still remember those 30 seconds of my life like it was 5 minutes ago. I haven't gone hunting or picked up a blow gun since.
I am starting to get the itch to do some coyote hunting, but I'm not sure why. I really think its about the challenge of shooting a fast moving target at long distances. I don't really like the idea of killing an animal, Especially one that I am not going to eat. I have such a bad taste in my mouth from the rabbit that I am afraid to try hunting again.
I'd like some advice or maybe just hear your thoughts on this? Can I enjoy hunting and let go of my prior bad feelings or am I just not a hunter at heart?
BTW, I support managing wildlife by hunting and I feel feeding your family with an animal you harvest from the wild is a wonderful thing. I have nothing against other people killing game, just not sure it for me(Even though it looks really fun).
Help me find my inner predator!
I bow hunted deer when I was a kid but never had the opportunity to shoot a deer. I have only intentionally killed one animal in my life. When I was 15 I found my step dads blow gun and he showed me how to use it. I got pretty good at hitting tennis balls even to the point that I would roll them down the drive way and hit them on the move out to maybe 10 yards or so.
A few days after I started messing around with it, I was cleaning the blowgun and a rabbit ran across the driveway. It stopped about 20 yards away and I decided to take a shot at it. I really didn't think I would be able to hit it but I was young and dumb and decided to give it a go. I shot it while it was broad side to me eating some food from the garden. He dropped down about an inch and never moved again... at first I thought I just shot over it and it squatted like a deer, but as I approached it to retrieve my dart, he never moved. At first I was proud of my marksmanship, but as I picked his warm, lifeless body from the ground, I began feeling horrible. Sadly, The animal went to waste. I still remember those 30 seconds of my life like it was 5 minutes ago. I haven't gone hunting or picked up a blow gun since.
I am starting to get the itch to do some coyote hunting, but I'm not sure why. I really think its about the challenge of shooting a fast moving target at long distances. I don't really like the idea of killing an animal, Especially one that I am not going to eat. I have such a bad taste in my mouth from the rabbit that I am afraid to try hunting again.
I'd like some advice or maybe just hear your thoughts on this? Can I enjoy hunting and let go of my prior bad feelings or am I just not a hunter at heart?
BTW, I support managing wildlife by hunting and I feel feeding your family with an animal you harvest from the wild is a wonderful thing. I have nothing against other people killing game, just not sure it for me(Even though it looks really fun).
Help me find my inner predator!